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Fa-Na-Tic DREAMS
Sunday, December 7, 2008

sigh..i totally have no mood to study..a lot of troubles recently..=(

anyway, sometyms, i feel myself being insulted so badly that i have no way of facing myself or him..sigh..trust..where is it?? =(

WHY he don't understand me?!! A small matter that i don't put it to heart and accidentally confused them together can also be said as I LIED!!! what is wrong?? !I need counselling i guess..I nearly gave up everything..i nealy lost hope in life..

but..i shall be strong..NOT a single tear will fall off my cheeks..this time, problems that comes, obstacles that block my way, i shall manage it. I will learn to grow, to face things myself. I will mend my injuries myself. The next time u see me, I'll be different.

I PROMISE...
I'll show it to you,
i can prove to u,
i will NOT backout!
Thursday, December 4, 2008

here's another short entry for today. 2nd entry of the day. A week and 1 day back, i helped my jie to write chinese words and she like so happi..haha..so cute..anyway, i screen shot from her blog my CREDITS. hahaha..here's it:

haha..in case you guys cannot see, here's wad written:

"p.s: credits to xiao mei for the chinese characters. she went to my account to help me without any complaints. happy that you've found the guy that can make you feel blissed. stay that way okay? =)"

haha..thanks sis. =) i won't complain de la aiyo..more den willing to help u..anyway, thanks jie, i really wanna stay that way with that guy.=) hope u and jakin will stay happy always also..hope he will make u feel very 幸福 =)good luck. really thanks for your blessings though u nv write la..haha..=D

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♥~~~Love entry~~~♥
At bugis with bibi,sis and jie-fu

sigh..why do ppl like to comment on others love life when they don't have a love yet? why do ppl take it to heart when every1 is just out to find their true love?why izzit that ppl criticize others just because of jealousy?

well, sometyms, i really take words to heart easily, no matter what you say bout my love. Everytym, coz of others, i break with my bf. Everytym, coz of what others think i give up on a love so real.

"Gal, can you be more sensible?"
"Gal, can you not heed what others say?"
"Gal, can you have a thinking on your own?"


and this tym, i decided. No matter what others say, no matter whether you say we cannot last long, no matter you say he's no good, so what? You do not know him well, you did not even see him before. This time, for him, for me, i shall have my own thinking for the first time, even if i regret in the future, at least i did not listen to what people say that breaks the relationship up. Never gonna be like the past. Say what you want, say what you think will make you happy. Even by all means to disgrace me, to disgrace my love, i shall not care..



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The picture he drew for me.


The keychain i made for him(according to drawing above)

Love is tough, hard to maintain. And not everything that we did together, the days and date will be remembered. All i remember is i really love him. As long as there is love, there is hope.

Love is mysterious, and in love, distance and time are never obstacles. In love, a couple can be together for decades and yet if their love isn't strong enough, a light conflict could break them apart easily.
Now, for reflections of the past, regarding my ex-bf(shall not mention name). Remember how we broke up? i dunno if u're reading this entry. But because we have too many conflicts that the love turn sour. Guess it just isn't strong enough. sometyms, when i think back, i keep asking myself is it "we're not suited?", "we've gone too fast?", "our temper clashes?", "i don't feel comfortable with you?" or the most typical one which many avoids at all tym "i've long lose feelings.." Can you tell me? how can i actually be fair when the love is weak?sorry..

But, in the opposite side, a couple can be together for just days, but if their love for each other is very deep, nothing in the world can break them apart. Likewise, in this relationship, i dowan anyone and anything to break us apart. Not that I'm afraid you'll succeed in it. I just dowan you to waste your effort. =) I love the way I am now. And honestly, ever since Justin, he's another guy that humours and entertain me with no other conditions just to make me happy. I believe he'll be better, stronger and without any terms and conditions attached, i want him to be happy and healthy. ^^

thinking back those days,
how i wish i met him earlier.