I've discussed with my parents about my Japan study trip already. They kind of accepted the idea of mine. But i've got to start to learn how to take care of myself from now onwards till the day i leave for Japan. 2 years from now, i shall start my new life..but there's something there pushing me back from pursuing this goal of mine..and i guess you guys know it well..*-My LOVE or My DREAMS?-*
well, today Yansheng said something which i think a lot.."what about ah bao?" hmms..tough question u know..actually, though i say i do not wish to let him wait,ask him carry on stay in singapore find a good gal and just marry, but my heart aches..i seriously feel like asking him to go with me..but how can i be so selfish? den yansheng said, "If i were you, i wouldn't give up my love for my dream." Why??Just because i am a gal?I shouldn't let my future husband carry that burden to support me my whole life. I wan to plan for my future. Therefore dreams are important to me also. Not everyone will be interested in the stuffs I'm interested in. Since I'm interested in something that may lead to my bright future, why not? But still, both love and dreams are really important to me. it's like asking you a question, "if ur dad and mum fall into the sea, which would you save?"
what should i do now? =(
will he wait?i doubt so..It's 6 years..not 6 days nor 6 months.
will he come with me?i doubt so too.
who will be such a stupid fool to start their life anew in a country that they have no clue of?(exclud. me)
who will be willing to sacrifies for some1 they love?It's tough.
6 years is long. but these 6 years, i will become strong. i will have much more knowledge that surpass most people. so..what should i do?
~*LOVE.....or.....DREAM?*~
yay~!guess what? I'm getting excited to my 21st yr old..but why? BECAUSE, i wanna go abroad to Japan to pursue further studies..I've got to plan for my future now. and thats because, I'm 19 this yr..not much time left to waste. Basically, i've to spend 6 yrs or more in Japan. Thats a really long time. By the time, I'm already 27 or 28. old woman..haha!you see, I'm really interested in japan for the following reasons which seems to impress every1:- I wanna learn bout Japan's cultural
- I wanna learn bout how they live
- To learn bout their politics
- To learn bout their perception on quality
And, i wanna start my life from scratch..From young, i always depended on others to live. I know nothing on my own. Admissions for schools, i always failed to participate. I always let my parents helped me to sign up coz i was too lazy. I do not wish my life to be a failure. If I do not learn independant and live in pressure, i will never grow. I will never be able to work in the competitive environment be it Singapore or Japan. I will never know how hard life is out there and how hard is it to be on your own to save money when you have nothing but just education. People tell me it'll be tough, i will cry just the 1st day i enter Japan. I know i will..but if i don't fight for my future, who will?right?=)
2 years to study in japanese language sch, 4 years to study in Univeristy. when i come back singapore, u'll see me standing strong. i will achieve 3 certificate(i hope)..and i will make my parents as well as all of you, proud of me..I felt the need to stand alone. I have good friends in Japan, not to worry. I believe after i enter japan, we'll be even better friends..haha!
6 years is a long time..but is not forever..it's just a part of my life investment.
sorry my dear,
but dreams only come once
i know you will not
accompany me
but thx for your words
i felt relieved
coz i felt ur love ♥
